TV presenter and actress Amanda Holden appears in the June issues of Good Housekeeping magazine and has revealed that she’s “not allowed” to have another child – even if she wanted to. Already mum to daughters Alexa Louise Florence, 9 and Hollie Rose, 3, with husband Chris Hughes, the star has often spoken about her complicated pregnancies – including the stillborn birth of her son Theo in 2011 when she was 7 months along.

“I would be dead the next time. And I think Chris would say you can have them but you’re not having them with me.

“I’ve got the two I’m supposed to have. I just had to complete my family to feel like I could be me.”

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During the birth of her second daughter, Amanda lost such a large amount of blood that she almost died. The traumatic experience meant that she and her husband suffered from posttraumatic stress disorder as a result. Something they have both visited a therapist for – to help them come to terms with such a bad time, when it should have been such a joyous occasion.

“My therapist told me I had no more tools or coping mechanism left. She was very good at giving me sentences to say to myself to make me stop panicking about my own mortality.

“I think you have none of these worries unless you’ve got children. If it had just been me and Chris and I’d died, it would have been awful for him but nowhere near as bad as a child losing their mother. 

 “It makes you suddenly think, I have to live. I’ve got to live, but I’ve got to try and live a good, happy life for me too and I think that’s why I faced up to the fact that I needed to speak to somebody. It was a really good thing. I’m probably too open but I have no secrets.”

Source: Good Housekeeping  Issue: June 2015